Also yesterday was the first day for rushing for SAE (Sigma Alpha Epsilon) and so far I'm pretty happy that I showed up. A lot of cool people, but I also must remember to make effort to keep in contact with my older friends.
I have about an hour and a half before the next nap, I have to say I think my body is looking foreword to it like I predicted. I'm hoping that I will be able to sleep each time the nap comes instead of just resting. I think I had a hard time last time because my mind was excited from meeting and interacting with the new people I have met.
I wanted to mention that I am not sure if I am having a hard time remembering everyone's name because I am meeting so many new people at once and I already have a hard time memorizing people's names or because it is because of the lack of sleep. Maybe I should carry around a small notebook to help remind me who I have met? I can safely say I have probably met and shook hands with/ hugged well over 10 people throughout the day. I'm sure if they keep popping up throughout my time, it will come easier.
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I just took my 3:00am nap and i have to say that I had a weird dream. I have to say that i am pretty tired and i defenitely need to find something to do. I am actually really tired.this is how i felt earlier after a nap as well.
Well, I am awake now, its 3:52. Time just kind of flew by, not sure where it went. But definitely hit an emotional string just now. I watched the following link and I urge you to watch it before continuing reading:
http://www.youtube.com/wat
I don't want to give away the plot but it definitely hit something close to home. I haven't cried like that in awhile. Guess right now, I need some validation. I keep myself busy, I plan events a week or two ahead with people. I try to network and try new things. Essentially, I feel like a Yes Man (a great movie by the way, which I saw with a good friend) always accepting and trying new things. But I guess deep down I question what is this for? What am I trying to prove to myself, or to anyone else? When he is asked to take a picture of a couple, I just...cried. There are many advantages to being single. I am doing many things I wasn't able to do when I was dating. But the biggest con is the loneliness. Yes I have amazing friends, and yes I have met many people but the love from friendship and the love from someone special are just different things. It's like peanut butter and jelly, both are two different things, but you really just need both to make it a damn good sandwich.
I am definitely more awake now, and I kind have shown to people following my experiment something that is really personal, but I feel is vital to what I am doing. Just a sudden realization of a deep feeling that I didn't know I had. This was a great video for me to watch and opened me up to a new view on life. Not so much in the sense of loneliness but giving people validation. We all need it, it feels good to know someone notice our efforts of perusing our dreams and goals. They say good news goes unnoticed, and I say this shouldn't happen anymore. The world could be a happier place if we can stop and appreciate our neighbor for just one small moment. One small compliment can make someone's day, or even their life. Giving someone confidence is such a big deal, because confidence in yourself will lead to amazing things.
I should end this for now and try to get a few things done. I will report more as the day goes on.
Note to self: Grab more fruit from the DC for snacks.
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Just finished with my 6:00 nap. Feeling kind of tired again, and the sleep wasn't as good as the last one. I did have some sort of dream, but i couldnt tell if i was just sleeping or thinking. I am hungry, not sure what will be open at this time, probably go to starbucks again for a bagel and something to drink.
I drove down home in mountain view at around 7:40 and took my time. Driving wasn't difficult, so that is good. started my laundry because i have no clean clothes anymore whatsoever. As it draws closer to 9, I look more foreword to the nap.
Just woke up from my 9:00 and took a shower. That hit me like a bomb. I notice that I sweat when am in deep sleep.I am very tired right now, I think I need food in my system. In the shower I was really debating weather or not I want to continue with this. I want to keep pushing, but this is hitting me hard. I think I just need to find something to do to take my mind off it, as well as eat. hopefully once I start moving around I feel okay again like previous times. Apparently Steve Pavlina had a hard time on day two as well. It seems though that day three got better, hopefully I can get through this stage all in one piece. I'm hoping my trip to san fran will help me out a lot.
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So I was a goober and totally miscounted my sleep time and thought it was at 11:00 instead of 1:00. I was to meet Bianca at 12:00. I told her and thank god she was understanding and i was able to get my nap in at 1:00. Most definitely it has been easier staying awake while having a conversation. And being in the Japanese tea house garden was nice, it was hard to be tired. At around 4:00 i dropped her off and headed back home. It was a lot harder to drive alone being tired but I did manage to get home safely. As soon as I got home, I set my alarm and fell asleep hard. My bed at home is so comfortable it was so easy to sleep. It was hard to wake up, and I actually got a missed call, but im glad i didn;t over sleep and miss my alarm.
Feeling alright now, just need to get some food and engage my mind for the next few hours. Should be easy with my friends when we go to the Korean market
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It's almost time for my 9:00pm nap. Just wanted to get some thoughts and feelings in before I fell asleep. I noticed that at first when I wake up, I hate the world for about a good 1 minutes. After getting dressed again I feel normal. It's a lot easier to feel awake when you are around people. From the beginning and towards the end of the middle of the four hours, I feel energetic and talkative. As the final hour comes before my nap I start to feel sleepy. To try to cut back on the time it takes trying to get to sleep what I want to do is 10 minutes before the scheduled sleep, I lay down in bed with a book or my laptop and as the time comes just lay down. Hopefully this will get my body ready to sleep.
I've been eating as much as I could, been wanting to workout or something, but kind of concerned if the strain would make it more difficult to stay awake. I think I may give it a shot. Also I haven't yet explained this experiment to my parents yet, I wonder what they will think?
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So I was feeling very energetic when I got to my friends room. Everyone was eating pizza and steven was cool enough to order me some too which was great because i needed to eat. Then a surprise apperence of my friend Marcus and his lady friends dropped by and the topic of CaramellDansen came up and i thought it would be a PERFECT opportunity to start my video project. Basically the idea behind this is to really just have fun, and to have as many willing friends to participate in several different settings I frequent and enjoy and feel comfortable in.
This was my first directing experience, and i was lucky enough to have some brave souls act silly and have fun. Im not sure how long this project is going to take but i want it to be cool. I have this vision in my head. I will be making a post and tagging people that I feel that may be interested.
Anyways, after that bit of fun I decided to try skating. So far the sleep hasnt really affected my abilities to skate, if anything I felt i was landing more pop shove-its.
At this point now I am feeling kind of tired, but I am so motivated, I am so glad that i have all this time to do all the things I never had time for! One would be this video that im making, or cleaning my room or car, studying and all while still having a social life.
Many people are asking me why, and whats the point? To answer that really is to see this experience first hand, and to kind of challenge myself to push through this. It defenetly is a different lifestyle, and it really is fun. Side note, I suck even more at spelling, thank god for spell check.
Currently I am feeling a little drowsy but still enthusiastic. As arthur puts it "My power level well exceeds 9000!!!!" And jp says "Bukkake"
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